I would have done this yesterday but I was pretty much asleep by the time the ball dropped in Times Square. The last New Year’s Eve that I actually celebrated was in 2000, the millennium and the memory of that is still very much alive with me. I will hold onto that until I am allowed the opportunity to make new memories.
So 2014 means that I now officially
have 4 more years to go before completing my sentence. There really is light at
the end of this journey for me. Now I am eligible to be moved to a minimum
custody level prison if the administration believes I would be productive
there.
It also means that I have now spent 12
years behind wire fences and barbed wire.
Enough Said.
Like so many others, I did make some
New Year resolutions. I usually keep them to myself so that if I break one,
nobody knows about it and therefore, can’t say anything. Still, I decided to
share them this year and what better way to do that than here, with my readers?
DAVID’S
NEW YEAR RESOLUTIONS
- BE MORE TOLERANT: I would really like to be more tolerant to others. I go up and down with this at times and, as often is the case, it is completely mood driven. I need to be more even keeled and consistent.
- BE KINDER TO MYSELF: For those who know me well, I can be a mixed bag. I am however, very self-critical in ways that make me seem crazy. The majority of it is physical changes i.e.; loss of hair, lines in the face, body changes. The problem is that time didn’t stop simply because I came to prison. I subconsciously blame my physical changes on my incarceration and therefore, view them as negatives. That way of thinking does me no good. It is not healthy and certainly not kind.
- BE FUTURE DRIVEN:It’s so easy for people in prison to give up on the future because we to worry about simply surviving every minute of every day. Sometimes planning next week seems premature – so we don’t. For me, the future has been a “yeah, whatever…” topic because it has always seemed so far away. I mean, why plan – if I could be killed tomorrow or beaten up so badly that I can’t carry out basic daily functions? These are the ‘what if?’ things that I never share with the people closest to me because I don’t want to worry them. But they are always in the back of my mind though. Every years that passes, is a year I do not have to do again though so I need to make some serious decisions for my future. It’s time.
With that said, I wish everyone a very Happy 2014! Take care of
yourselves and do your best to find honor in all that you do!
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