The past couple of days have been pretty good. All of the dorms are officially back on normal operations now so all are welcome to play. Thus far, everyone is playing nicely. I have worked out 5 times in the past 2 days so my body is spent and sore. I will likely take today off. For whatever reason, this physical drive just came over me and so I went with it. I do feel good though.
Mom will be here tomorrow to visit all day. I have not seen her
for 6 weeks and it has been good. I have really needed to get myself together
mentally. For a good long while, I have been allowing my own mental state to be
controlled by everything she has, or has not been doing. There is a very
strange shift that has occurred as I have gotten older though. Somehow, I have
almost become parental towards her.
Years ago, when I was living my free life, I am absolutely
positive that I was making choices and doing things that she did not agree
with. But she still supported me in every way. Now, it is my turn. I believe
that there are so many things she could be doing to make her life better that
she is not willing to do. It upsets me to no end, but I must let it go, and not
take it personally. All that said, I hope that tomorrow goes well and that I
will be able to stay in a positive mindset.
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